♥ Historic Life Of Mine ♥

♥ BEAR ♥

2012-01-31T16:20:00.004+08:00

This, is my lovely bear. I love it so damn much. I always hug it to sleep.

These photos were taken weeks ago which I already forgotten to upload in my blog. I was busy celebrating my Chinese New Year last few days and there were still lots of pending photos and post.

I will be going back to KL on Wednesday or maybe Thursday, hopefully, the Unifi I have applied may be fixed soon by the time I reached KL and therefore, I can online and download a pile of drama and movie.

Too, I'm going for internship coming semester. Will be working for 4 days a week, so the rest of 3 days, I will try to find some part time job to fulfill my leisure time. This could help me to earn and save money too.

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20th's Maturity

2012-01-14T23:50:00.004+08:00

It was like a long-time-didn't-meet-up yum cha session. Today is our first day meet up in 2012. As usual, Kemaman Station is our only choice of place to go since there's lack of good selection of place to yum cha.

Well, return to the topic, we shared lots of innermost thoughts today, and I thought lots of things, yea, time flies, we all gradually turned to be 20th years old this year. It's like we all grown up and we never realize we aren't like previous us again. We have different thinking and opinions now, which are so unlike with previous time. We all changed, especially thinking.

The things we need, we require or demand are totally different if compare to when we were still 16th and 17th years old. Yea, undeniably, we grown mature by experiencing some unhappy experiences. We all learn from communications, and we all know communications in life is inevitable. It's like a circular and ever changing process. We are all unique so the way we communicate may be unique too. That's why we learn from each other communications - the way how they communicate. By communicating, we can only know what the other person is thinking no matter from verbal or nonverbal communication.

And now, I admit that it's important to think about other's feelings before you do something. I'm no saying that being yourselves is not a good idea, but try to give another person a right to feel their feeling, to let them express their feeling well without interrupting them. Just be an active listener. We only give comments when the other person finish expressing their feelings and stories.

No man is an island, when you're an island and you're the problem.

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2012

2012-01-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

It's 2012. It has been a long time I didn't update my blog as usual, the reason is lack of time. By the way, I can't online since the begin of November till now.

To be honest, I had good memories last month which was the last month of the 2011. However, I found something yesterday which I was so reluctant to see and know, it made me feel so confused.

I don't know what should I do after this, to pretend nothing or to ask about the truth. Well, I still can't make the decision right now, because I don't know what I need now.

By the way, I dyed my hair into red purple color last few days. Felt so contented with the color. The new year, the new me and the new meaningful life.

Good night people.

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I Hate To Being So Sick

2011-12-02T23:44:00.004+08:00

Planned to have a movie tonight actually. But then, illness spoil my everything, I mean I couldn't do anything like normal people today. I just have to rest, rest and take rest as much as possible like a dead fish. Seriously, I hate myself for being so weak - especially my health. How it could be? I try hard to remain my health by taking proper meal on time, but it seems doesn't really heal. What's the problem actually? =.="

Well, been staying at home from day to night. And it's time to sleep before it's too late. I don't want to get sick tomorrow again, I want to recover and I want to go out. =.="

Night people.

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♥ We Had Fun ♥

2011-11-21T18:42:00.005+08:00

Been busy with hectic life recently. I wish I could have some rest before moving on to the next stage. Well, it isn't my day today, so do yesterday. Eye bags appear again, yea, that's obvious from the picture above.

I'm going to move to another house soon. Not excited at all, it must be tiring! Duh. =S

It was her birthday - 19th November 2011. We celebrated her birthday at Old Town, Sri Rampai. The girl with sharp pink color polo tee - the birthday girl.

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We had fun!

Back!

2011-11-11T18:52:00.005+08:00

Had a hair trim last few days ago, by the way, my room wall is now in violent + grey color. I put on the sharp pink curtain in order to match my sweet wall. I feel warmed whenever I walked into my room. As usual, I have been busy with my college assignment given and prepare for the presentation too. I almost get mad because of them.

And finally, I manage to go home later, waiting for my dad to fetch me back. Too, I gain weight recently. I lost my weight for 3 kg after the serious illness. That's why I seldom self-snap now. It's ugly when you're too skinny. Omg!

Gotta go, will update soon!

I'm Waiting

2011-10-04T19:26:00.008+08:00

Omg! Dark circle (go away please)!

Self-taken while waiting the coming of her. I've been waiting for few hours. I haven't take my dinner yet, I'm so hungry.

Went to attend class like usual from this morning to afternoon. Everything went fine so far. Hopefully tomorrow will be another

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The Abandoned Post

2011-10-03T23:09:00.006+08:00

It was a truly nice place for a couple.

I've abandoned my Singapore trip post last three weeks. Since I'm busy with my college life now, I have no time to arrange the pictures one by one. Thus, I just upload two photos I like the most throughout the whole album of Singapore trip and I would briefly talk about it.

The scene above was the most memorable moment for me. That day we had crab as our dinner, we were treated by a jie jie (she loved to talk). Anyway, it was great to have crab as dinner. We went to have a walk on a big bridge I guess after dinner.

The day before, we had dinner with Xing gor gor. That time was my first time to meet and know him. I never knew any about him before. Yea, that's true, he was so talkative. We had buffet steamboat that night. We tried to fulfill our stomach as much as possible. And in the end, we all ended up full to the max! =)

We just walked nonstop at Orchard road, we were staying in Orchard Hotel for two nights. So mostly we spent our time at Orchard road. There were lots of shopping malls! But too bad, there's nothing much special with Malaysia's brands except the H.M. brand. However, I got myself a few things too.

The only picture with Yien. I still like it even if we looked small in the picture.

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Random Sunday

2011-10-03T02:32:00.011+08:00

As the title said, a random Sunday with Pei Li. Went to KLCC with her yesterday just to fill our leisure time since we both had nothing to do at home.

I still had fun although I didn't do any shopping as I've bought so much last few days and over-spent. It's time to control to waste unnecessary money on luxuries (keep my fingers across). Lol.

Burberry! There was a Burberry promotion, yesterday was the last day. I wished to own one but it's just too expensive for me, and I didn't get used to apply perfume too. So, just give up the thinking of buying it. =(

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We had KFC as dinner and after that Haagen-Dazs as our dessert.

I love Haagen-Dazs! Especially strawberry favorite one.

We had cookies & cream yesterday since Pei Li wanted to have a try on it. We finished it all. That's so freaking full and sweet!

1. I'm so in love when I had only several times.

2. Still fine with the taste, haven't get weary of it.

3. Omg! I don't feel like eating anymore, can I stop eating?

4. No, Pei Li. Don't force me to finish it.

However, still manage to finish it all. No more ice-cream for temporary (months maybe?).

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Read My Mind Please

2011-10-03T01:48:00.004+08:00

It's hard to pretend that you don't know anything or nothing when you indeed knew something that you're unwilling to know or to face. I wonder why I lose my courage to tell the fact. Perhaps I'm trying to evade myself from the truth which I'm so reluctant to know any about it. Maybe I cant afford to lose it so this is the way I choose to give chances. However, when it comes to my limit, I'll still face it toughly because I clearly know that this is the only choice.

Not that I don't want to tell, just that when you've repeated the same thing for several times, but everything remains the same, you'll probably get numb of it, this is true! It doesn't really mean that you really get numb of it actually, it could be you're afraid of getting hurt again as the previous wound haven't heal.

I've tried so hard to persuade myself to trust you and I do. But always, ended up with disappointment and I have to stand up myself again. Till now, time still cannot erase my fears. I did lots of things to cover up the fears but somehow it didn't work at all. The fears will appear in my deepest of heart when I hear or see anything that associated with it. Nevertheless, I have to pretend or act like "I'll never get influenced by those, I must be steady even if I already knew about it!"

When time goes long, pretending is already one of my weapons to protect myself from being hurt again. This is like a must-weapon when you can sense that someone is trying to hurt you even if they are unintentional.

When I choose not to speak or voice it out, it means I'm giving chance to change. I'll probably feel disheartened once I voice it out. I've tried so hard to forget about it, somehow I just couldn't make it. I can forgive but I will not forget unless there's changes. Not that I never told, but I never seen there's any changes so far.

I wish you could read my mind. Good night.

New Watch

2011-09-23T00:14:00.004+08:00

I just back from Singapore trip with my aunt and cousins. It was a tiring yet enjoyable trip with them. However, I have no time for uploading those photos, just let it be a pending post first.

Got myself a watch today. Had a met up with Pei Li and her boyfriend and we had McD as our dinner. Well, it's late, gotta sleep. Night peeps!

I have actually lots to voice out, but somehow, I don't know how to start. I wish you could read my mind clearly. Feel really depressed but still have to act like "I'm fine at all".

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♥ HANA MIZUKI ♥

2011-09-07T11:56:00.014+08:00

We purposefully went to Kuantan for brunch - sushi. We departed around 2.00pm and were craving for sushi. So here we go - HANA MIZUKI JAPANESE RESTAURANT. After having brunch, we went to some boutique to do little shopping. And I got myself a bag and a pair of shoes.

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Kaisen kimchi udon - RM18.00

California temaki - RM3.00

California maki - RM8.00

Abura bozu sushi - RM5.00

Chicken teriyaki zen - RM18.00

Unagi zen - RM28.00

Arrived home nearly 6.00p.m. They made my day, seriously!

Threesome

2011-09-06T11:27:00.011+08:00

It had been some time we didn't been beach together. Too bad, Cheng couldn't join us even if she was in Kemaman too. She was busy with her school stuffs.

Anyway, we just went to the most nearby beach - Impiana. And we just spent maybe less than an hour over there. However, we had fun, too, we enjoyed the moment we spent together.

We were threesome. It was really a nice day to hang out together with chums.
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The enjoyable moment.

No More Serious Eye Bags

2011-09-01T23:41:00.004+08:00

Yeah, eye bags were gradually recovered to a level which was 'not so serious'. It was worthwhile for me to stay at home and rest almost all the time. I seldom hang out until midnight lately, I must be at home before 12.00am.

Probably will hang out with Leng tomorrow night (hopefully she won't break her 50% promise). Lol. Off to drama, bye people.
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What should I Do?

2011-08-31T23:51:00.005+08:00

I'm so tired of fighting, I guess I've to take some rest before moving on to another stage. Seriously, I just spent my leisure time at home by watching drama and doing laundry (What a good girl!). Lol.

Those insecure feelings are surrounding me, I have no idea at all to cope with them even if I've tried for several times. I've nothing to share, nothing to comment, nothing to...whatever, I don't even know what I'm thinking now.

Maybe, maybe I've made a unwise decision. If I'm given a chance to tell, I will voice out my mind clearly.
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Welcome

2011-08-31T12:53:00.004+08:00

I'm welcomed to blog, again.

I guess I've left my blog for nearly two months. Yea, it's all due to my hectic college life of last semester. Hope the timetable can be loose a bit for next coming semester *cross my finger*.

Just a random evening to Impiana before sunset. So as usual, I be the driver of Yien and my another two siblings. I wish to go Kuatan later if it is possible. So much for today. Off to lunch.

Will update as much as I could.
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The End Of July

2011-07-31T22:29:00.004+08:00

I have to explain why I'm here again. Kemaman, I mean. Because of serious illness, daddy purposefully went to KL again in order to bring me to Kemaman. I was dizzy all the time and had no appetite to take any foods and even drinks. Somehow, I had to force myself too so as to avoid to be more weak. Seriously, I hate to be sick (I guess no one likes too). It didn't feel good when you feel like vomiting but you couldn't spit. This caused me dizzy until couldn't wake up from the bed. I just kept sleeping for 28 hours. It sounds really crazy. Yea, it always happen when I'm sick, especially when dizziness happens on me. It's more suffering than having a fever. In a word, I don't like to be sick!

Back to the topic, it's already the end of July, and tomorrow will be the begin of August. Things keep changing from moments to moments. And people who surround me also growing, of course including me. We are all learning from experiences and grow wiser.
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Well, went to Kuantan with Cheng them yesterday and had a chatterbox at Old Town. It's really nice for me. How I hope Pei Li and Kaa Yien were there too.

Did I tell u guys I got my car license three months ago? I guess no right. Well, I'm so in love with driving currently (I guess this will no longer maintained). I dispute to drive all the time, so far I love to be driver (haven't get tired of it). I'm hyper once I'm driving (I don't know why). Yien was supposed to know me well. I was her whole day driver today. Free of charge one, Yien. Haha!

Yea, I had a nice day with her too. We were idling from morning to evening.
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Sigh. Will be back to KL tomorrow. =(

Briefly

2011-07-12T20:11:00.006+08:00

First of all, this is a post without any displayed pictures. I'm here to tell about my stories last week. Or maybe last two weeks?

Well, I had twice hair cut in just a week. What I'm trying to say is I asked the hair stylish to cut off my destroyed hair and my hair is obviously lighter than before, of course, shorter too. So, basically I spent nearly RM200 on my hair last week.

Oh yea, I made own holidays for nearly a week and I back to hometown just in order to take some rest since I didn't rest well or enough for two months. Meaning, I skipped a week classes without any reasonable reasons. Went to Genting to stay one night with Daddy them. I was successful to persuade my dad to buy me Adidas tee. Besides, I got myself another two cardigan, dresses, one tank and what else?

Friday - a day normally Kemaman's people would go to Kuantan with family or friends or even couple. So, me too, went to Kuantan with parents. Well, I gained lots from them. What were them actually (I'm not going to tell)? However, I just made them spent lots on me, nearly RM1000 (bad girl). Aiks.

I done all my assignments finally. Had practical test yesterday. As for today, I laughed whole day at college with my friends. Yea, really nonstop of laughing (really laugh die me). I will have the last presentation tomorrow. Once I done it, I'm free until the final examination, and then, this semester is going to end. The point is, I'll be free for a month after that. Hurray! =)

So far this is my recent life. I'm enjoying with my life now but it's a bit tiring. I wish to have more rest.
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Three Generation Gathering

2011-07-03T22:04:00.014+08:00

I've been busy for weeks. And this week too. Mummy and Yien them came to KL last few days. So I went to Kota Damansara to meet them up. This was so-called three generation gathering.

I had nice days with them and too, nice chat with Yien.
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This was lady world.

The next day, we went to The Curve and Ikea.

Yien.

Like mum like daughter.

We went to this restaurant to have our brunch.

Busy sms-ing.

Two twins (one was fake and another one was real one).

Us in almost same attire.

Busy

2011-06-23T15:00:00.004+08:00

I'm busy with my assignments lately. Really have no time to do blogging until now. I just completed one of my assignments. There are actually still 5 more to go. How am I going to die for these?

Hmm...

As for my current life and feeling, yea, no doubt, I'm tired but yet happy. I'm so contented with my current life right now. However, I never meant not to move on anymore. It strengthen me to move on unceasingly. In order to gain more, I have to work harder beyond what I am now.

By the way, I'm so in love with shopping. I spent lots of money last week. Argh. Anyway, it's worth for me.
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Yien ♥ Yunyee

2011-06-13T21:19:00.008+08:00

This is so perfectly alike, don't you think so?

I like this even if my fringe look stupid. Haha.

As you see pictures above, yea, no doubt, I met her last week (last few days). I purposefully returned hometown in order to meet her. I spent my whole afternoon to accompany her. We chit-chatted in the room. Well, the first sight when I saw her, I felt quite awkward, but just for moments. Felt better after starting our conversation, those embarrassing feeling were gone.

Frankly, if compare to previous time, I look fatter now and she looks thinner (I didn't bluff or exaggerate at all). Too, we went to Kuala to have otot-otot and keropok lekor. Too bad, we didn't get ourselves coconut juice. Aiks.

So, I'm currently back to KL again. Planning to go back again weeks later. Oh yea, last but not least, she bought me lots of stuffs - bag, dresses, top and some accessories. Heart her!

Yien: You know? =p
Yunyee: I don't know! =X

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Hair Is light Now

2011-06-02T17:29:00.005+08:00

I was thinking to have a hair cut from this morning. Without hesitation, I went this afternoon after class. I think the weather is too hot, my thick hair was too annoying for me. I felt so hot all the time. So I decided to cut it lighter (it will grows thicker in just a month later).
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After hair cut. Oh no! My serious eyes. =.="

Tired Again

2011-06-01T22:05:00.005+08:00

Again, I feel tired. Going to sleep soon. Yeah, I'm so glad to know that Yien is in Kemaman now. I feel like our distance is more closer now (of course). I'm planning to go back (but I don't know when yet, hopefully as fast as possible). Too bad to say, I'm busy with my assignments lately. Perhaps, I can't even manage time to back. So, I have to deal with my assignment quickly.

Well, I've been thinking to have new hair cut since last three weeks. Till now, I have no any ideas yet (any suggestions). I guess maybe I prefer long and thick hair like mine now. For me, it's much more easy to manage than short hair.

Well, got to go. Bye people. Night too. Have a nice dream everyone.
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My lips. Lol.

Mad With Them

2011-05-30T21:47:00.004+08:00

"Being an effective counselor isn't that easy."

Yea, now only I realize it. I'm so mad with my undone and a pile of assignments recently! This is the first time I feel stressed about them. There are 5 uncompleted tutorial assignments and another 2 practical assignments, meaning there are 7 uncompleted assignments.

I'm doing my assignments now. Thus, I just pick some times to do little blogging. And to be honest, I feel tired when especially having whole day classes - from 8.00a.m. to 6.00p.m. It seriously causes me fatigued. I guess I will sleep early later (it's a must I think, else, I would have a serious eyes bag and circle problem).

So, I'm going to confront my works again before relaxing myself on the comfort bed. Night people!
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Final Decision

2011-05-28T23:28:00.010+08:00

These were the Mango bags I mentioned last time. Guess which I bought in the end? You will know if you keep scrolling down. Yeah. (By the way, which you prefer the most? Yellow, orange or indigo?)

I always have the difficulties of making decision when I'm doing shopping. Normally, I wish to get all the things I like. Yeah, all. I think none of you don't wish to, isn't it? But there is always financial matter. Aiks.

Yea, no doubt, I bought the orange one at first. However, I went to exchange it into yellow colour the next day (because I did a survey and most of them said yellow colour suit me better). Frankly, actually I like both of them and I really don't know how to choose. Too bad, I couldn't get two of them as I wish.

Thus, in the ended, this was my final decision.
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Picture taken this afternoon.

In Love With Shopping

2011-05-26T23:19:00.014+08:00

Went to KLCC and Pavillion yesterday, yea, alone. I enjoyed to do shopping alone anyway. For sure, I got myself lots of stuffs too (two shorts, two tees, a black dress and a bag from Mango). I accidentally spent a lot. Aiks.
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Before going out.

In Esprit's fitting room (Pavillion one).

This one was from Mango.

I got this with quite low price, really.

Mickey mouse. White or navy one? In the end, I got myself the navy one.

I can't explain in too details as I've forgotten things that happened yesterday. It was a eventful day for me, I think (because I'm really in love with shopping).
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Curently

2011-05-25T22:01:00.006+08:00

Apparently, hair is growing thicker and longer in just three weeks I think.

I'm so frustrated of the stupid dumb line! Well, feel so tired all the day, it makes me so not in mood to do anything. Not in mood to do my assignments (or I should say I don't even know how to start to do).

See, my eye bags are getting serious (I wonder why) even if I have had enough sleep. For this semester's timetable, my classes are all start on 8.00 a.m. sharp from Monday to Friday except Tuesday which start from 9.30a.m.. I definitely don't like the timetable!

As far as I'm concerned, the best is to sleep as much as possible. I hope I could get enough rest before I start to do anything, or else, I will probably not concentrate on doing it.

Well, it's time to dot. I'm going to sleep now. Night people. This is my current life - "I'm exhausted all the time".

By the way, since I'm tired recently, I'm not going to do so much blogging. But still, I'll keep it update as much as possible - short, simple and clear updates.
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Semester Four

2011-05-16T20:12:00.005+08:00

Time flies. When I was about to recall previous memories, I just realized that I've been stayed at KL for a year. I'm glad that I'm still alive. Lol. Yea, I'm senior now, that's so unbelievable. Frankly, I don't feel like starting college life yet as I haven't really take a rest at hometown.

However, I guess I have to adapt to college life again. I'm so tired, mentally I mean. By the way, going out later with friends, he is going to treat us drinks.

Not in mood today.
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Nervous

2011-05-09T16:25:00.007+08:00

Argh! Oh no! I start to feel nervous from now. Hopefully, everything goes smoothly tomorrow (praying).
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Just back from learning car and took a cold shower. The weather is so hot! By the way, I'm getting darker than before. I mean, I'm not as fair as before already because I didn't apply sunblock when I go out nowadays (too lazy).

Should I go out tonight? Or better stay at home and take a rest (thinking)?

I guess he really have to change his extreme bad attitudes, please!

Happy Mothers' Day

2011-05-08T23:31:00.009+08:00

Happy Mothers' Day!

These were hand-made colourful flowers for mummy. Another one was for Aunty. Too, bought two fruit cakes which labeled the common words "母亲节快乐"for them. I thought of nothing could give them, so just simply expressed my regard towards them. Hopefully, they love it.
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My hand-made flower with big ribbon. I made it whole-heartedly.

The flowers and me! Tadaa!

Happy Mothers' Day to every mummy! They've paid lots for us unceasingly, so do love them and appreciate them, their love too because they love you so much than you can expected.
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Mothers' Day

2011-05-08T00:41:00.006+08:00

她说:这是22年以来最难忘的母亲节.

But our tears dropped after listening to this. For me, this year isn't a great mothers' day, ever. Yea, I do feel...(I don't know how to describe my feeling). I don't know what should I do, really don't know. To tell? Or not to tell (I really don't know)?

I never think that things will goes like this.
为什么人总是要等到真的错了,才会悔改,有的,甚至不改,更不知错.
有些时候,有些人,总是要等到失去了,才会想珍惜,可是,有时侯,时间往往不留人.
我们没有很多时间,知道错了就要改,因为你连明天是否还能生存,都不知道.不要等到一切都太迟时,才想改过,因为,一切都已经太迟了.
Sometimes, it might be too late and you will leave regret in life, forever.

我希望,这次是真的最后一次. 机会已经给过了无数次,只是你没有珍惜过.
我真的笑不出了. 也觉得很不开心.
Good night.
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Nice Day

2011-05-07T21:45:00.015+08:00

Back from learning car and after taking shower .Before going out.
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With my new pillow. Small one. Ahah (so in love with it)!

Went to yum cha with them at Kemaman Station. After that, we headed to Awana since Cindy's boyfriend wanna to go to beach. Well, it was a rainy day.

Us in the mirror.

On the way to Kuala. We had otot-otot, pais ikan and keropok lekor.

Anyway, it was a nice day for me! Hopefully, I can finally sleep well every nights. Oh yea, what am I going to buy? I got no idea yet. How?
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My Friday

2011-05-06T20:56:00.010+08:00

Went to Kuantan with family just now. I was purposefully going to heal my sickness (hopefully it works).

I asked my little brother, "is it look nice or ugly, or okay only?". However, he couldn't answer well as he was busy with his game, then I asked him to snap it.

Got this today and also a new single coverlet (so contented). Haha! My new babe!

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Be Yourself

2011-04-26T16:29:00.005+08:00

Ahah! I have to start my college life again after two weeks (don't feel like going). I guess I will be getting my car license very soon (if I don't fail). From now, I have to save money in order to do shopping with Yien and my friends later. I can't wait to see her (we didn't meet for a year or maybe more than)! Guess I would have some plans when she's back.

Well, we don't purposefully follow or copy others, if not, follow blindly. Just be yourself and do any suit you. Don't ever force yourself for being a new self (unreal). Choose whatever fits you. You're born to be who you are, discover yourself and don't create an unreal self. It isn't look good anyway. Be real, and you'll be able to show your charm unintentionally. And that's you!
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Red Eye

2011-04-25T23:58:00.007+08:00

My left eye was red. It was pain and I still wore lens. This was what we called as "女人爱美不要命". Lol.

See, it looked like crying eye (left one).

This too. I quickly took it off after realizing this. And it got better now. I felt tired today, like not in mood all the time. I think this was the result of staying home from day to night. It caused me even more tired. And I slept over and again (really pig).

By the way, I wish to get car license as fast as possible. I can't wait to drive on the road by fetching my friends and cousins. Ahah! I'm so looking forward to the coming of June!
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♥ Sagittarius ♥

2011-04-25T23:11:00.008+08:00

I'm Sagittarius!

射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。

　　
　　她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的，如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。
　　
　　你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。
　　
　　她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱，如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。
　　
　　她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。
　　
　　她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛，也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛，也就懒得去恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来，她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。
　　
　　她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事，她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。
　　
　　她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来，她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。
　　
　　别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的-——她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。
　　
　　她不是不想平静，她只是找不到平静的理由，她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。
　　
　　如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来，从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。她的心再累，无法逼迫自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。
　　
　　千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美，但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。
　　
　　那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。
　　
　　她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。
　　
　　因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁.
　　
　　她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。
　　
　　在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。
　　
　　她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

This is so accurate!
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Strong Sun

2011-04-24T16:51:00.007+08:00

Just back from driving (learning). Argh! I felt fatigued again, no matter mentally or physically (I wonder why too). This time I learned for one and half hours. I'm sweating now because of the extreme hot weather! Ishh!

This was how I wore just now. By the way, it was so hot outside. The sun was really strong. It could probably killed me (spot the white bag - my new bacco bag).
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Really felt like sleeping, my eyes so tired.

Night

2011-04-23T23:50:00.004+08:00

Learned car this evening for two and half hours, it seriously killed me. It caused me so tired. I asked daddy to hire a driver for me after I got home (it's so hard to learn parking!). Lol. I think probably I could sleep tightly tonight (hopefully).

Well, came back from Kemaman Station, I had my supper with my dear - Ms.An Joy. I had twice mihun tomyam in only a day (I wonder why I will not feel bored with it). Lol.

Gotta go! Off to bed. Night people. I feel so tired of it.
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Saturday

2011-04-23T16:15:00.007+08:00

I didn't sleep well whole day because of a call. Hopefully, I can sleep well tonight.

Went out just now with Cheng, I accidentally bought a cap, fake spec with purple side frame and a white bacco bag. We had brunch together at Kemaman Station, and mihun tomyam as my brunch.
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Love the sunlight. But I don't wish to sunbathe. It's so pain.

With the spec which I mentioned above just now.

One of the earrings I bought yesterday. Spot it? Heart it so much.
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Maybe, I could have another one. It seems suit me better than this.
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Friday

2011-04-23T16:01:00.006+08:00

Went to Kuantan with An Joy them. Pei Li and me followed Nickson's car with Cindy. This was the very first time I sat in red sport car. Lol. We watched movie together - 倩女幽魂. It was kinda boring for me. We planned to Sing K at first, but then we had lack of time, thus had to cancel the plan.

I bought 3 bras, one headphones and two pairs of earrings. It simply cost me a lots too. Lol. I trimmed my fringe too, length still maintained anyway. I just had one meal in a day - KFC. I felt extremely tired.
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Outfit of yesterday, I was trying bra. Lol.

Thursday

2011-04-23T15:51:00.003+08:00

I have no time to update my blog lately, even online. I'm recently busy with my drama and hanging out with friends. These photos were taken on last Thursday - the day I yum cha-ed with friends at Kemaman Station. I just felt sleepy by the time I got home and I slept.

I got this cap when I try to clean up my closet and I just realized I never wear it out.
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Awake

2011-04-20T12:57:00.004+08:00

Just awake from my bed. And of course, I've took bath. Will go out later with Cheng them. Feel so unwilling to move lately. I wish I could only sleep and eat and then watch my drama (how come huh?). =.="

Oh yea, I dreamt of my grandpa and grandma yesterday (they are so nice in the dream). Oops! Start feeling hungry, gotta off to brunch now. Bye people.
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Hair Treatment

2011-04-19T20:39:00.004+08:00

I haven't take my dinner and doing hair treatment now. I'm waiting time to wash and dry it. Probably, nasi minyak would be my dinner later. As for supper, I have no idea yet.

Hmm...

I finished my drama this evening. Oops! Meaning, tomorrow I will be very bored at home. I think I should go out tomorrow. Well, I wonder why I feel so sleepy whenever after having a full meal (that's really a pig). I'm thinking that when I'm going to be a fat girl if I keep on doing this (sleep after eating, repeatedly).

Well, it's time to wash my hair. Bye people.
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Craps

2011-04-18T20:42:00.004+08:00

Had my dinner with family just now before going to take a bath. I'm going out soon. As there's some time, so I do some blogging before going. I'm thinking where to go later. 3K? Mushroom garden? Kemaman station? Why Kemaman seem like don't have place to go (I need some fresh one lar)? Lol. And what should I eat later as supper? Mihun tom yam is essential one. What about grilled chicken chop (I've had three times in a week already)? Nasi minyak or nasi lemak? Mee goreng basah (I don't know which to choose)?

Well, I didn't gain weight this time, it maintains anyway. I wish to gain more in fact (trying hard). Lol. Off to drama again, bye people.

Have a nice day.
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Home & Drama

2011-04-18T17:55:00.003+08:00

Stayed home from yesterday. Yea, I didn't go out from yesterday. I spent my time on drama, that's so funny, really (laugh die me)! What to do later? Going out for yum cha? Or watch drama again? But probably, I would like to choose to yum cha instead of watching drama. I feel even so tired whenever I stay at home for whole day. =.="

I prefer to hang out with friends, at least for me, that's meaningful! Seriously, I feel like doing some shopping now. Guess I have a really high fever on it. How to stop this kind of mind? =.="

Bye people, off to drama. By the way, received his messages but I couldn't make a reply because of running out of credit. Hope that he has fun over there (enjoy ya). Good luck too.

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I Love Beach

2011-04-17T13:58:00.065+08:00

This is us! At the beach!
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♥ I LOVE BEACH ♥

I love this photo the most. Love the blue blue sky.

See how nice the beach is?

And yeah! I need to jump as higher as possible to take a deep breath.

Obviously, this is me at the beach. Love the sunlight. It makes my day!

Heart this one too!

Ours. All in different colour.

I really really love to be at beach no matter day or night (it would be much better if there are stars in the sky).

Can you feel the fresh air?

The clean one.

So crystal clear?

Yea, Awana again.

Let's start the story.

We departed there around 4.30pm. Oh yea, before reaching, we went to have lunch at nearby KFC. We began capture by the time we reached there. Well, in real life, I haven't get my car license. That's too bad.

With lovely Pei Li.

Walked to the beach step by step while chit chatting.

See the guy came and interrupt us. I guess he loved to be captured too. Lol.

Aiks. "Wait me gao dim my hair first!", but who knows? She snapped without telling. Lol.

"Hey! Stop capturing here. I haven't get ready lar!"

Beach, here we come!

She was promoting the shampoo that she use (black and smooth hair after using). Lol.

"Cheng, I want meh meh", and I jumped! =)

"An Qi, your turn to sayang me, kuai dian." =)

"Pei Li, what's going on with you o? Tell me first."

Become emo suddenly (I was thinking something). Lol.

Delighted them!

Haha! "Am I really that heavy, Pei Li? Why you seem so xin gu and reluctant?" (I didn't force you too)

"Ahh! Kuai dian, run ark! I don't want get wet." =)

Haha! Random one.

Hey, whose hands was that (so bad and ham sap)? Lol.

Haha! Love this, candid one!

Me: "Come and kiss me lar, An Qi."
An Joy: "Here I come!"
Cheng and Li: "Wei ya, why you two don't wait us one? So bad!"

Haha! This one so funny, but I like it!

Seemed like we were all waiting Tsunami.

She said she loved this one.

Us with sunlight!

Natural expressions! See, she was busying sms with her boy, I guess. Lol.

I heart this one!

Haha! We were hyper, maybe.

Really too hyper. =)

Hey! Stop here! Haha!

Lol.

2+3=5? Lol. Where was another one? She was being our photographer.

Smile.

It was time to back.

Felt reluctant to go. Hmm.

Hmm...
But I have to.

"I haven't ready lar. One more please, thanks."

Yea, this one nice!

"What? You want me to jump like dancing ballet?" Lol.

"Can I say no? Hmm."

"No! You must jump now! Kuai dian lor!"
And I jumped. Haha!

Walked to the car unwillingly.

Before really going home.

Jom, balik rumah!

It was a really nice day for me!

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I'm Full

2011-04-15T23:12:00.005+08:00

I was just awake from nap. Felt so good after taking nap. Received a call from An Joy after that, she asked to dine together. Thus, I had my dinner at home first before her. As usual, I ordered mihun tomyam (add on spicy and sour) and a grilled chicken chop, ice lemon tea too (considered as supper?). I didn't bath and I went out with her. =.="

The look after waking up from nap (wore fake spec instead of lens). I was lazy to wear lens.

A picture of her and me.
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I'm enjoying my hair treatment while blogging now. Feel so nice when staying in a cold room. By the way, I thought I would extremely pain, but in fact I feel nothing.
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Movie

2011-04-15T14:52:00.008+08:00

Went to Kuantan yesterday night with An Joy and Cheng them. I got myself a pair of jean and 4 pairs of earrings. Lol. We went there for movie - Last Dragon at 10.40pm. Overall, I think it was nice. It was 1.15am midnight when I got home. It's bit tiring, maybe I didn't hang out til so late already. Quite not used to it, or maybe, it's time to admit I'm getting older, my body couldn't afford to stay outside til that late. =.="

Well, woke up at 12pm sharp just now. And I stayed in front of my laptop until 2.30pm before having my brunch. By the way, I didn't sleep well last night (I absolutely hate nightmares!). Ishh!

Haha! I requested Pei Li to aid me to buy the clothes that I want at KL. And she bought. Gonna to take from her tomorrow. I just can't stop buying lately (I don't know why). Hair growing longer and thicker, feel like having a hair cut but I feel like leaving it too. =.="
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Too Much

2011-04-13T17:04:00.003+08:00

I've forgotten how many clothes, bags, shoes and accessories I own. Too, how many did I throw away and donate. I just couldn't count on them. I have a wish - possess a huge room and "special wardrobe" room when I start to earn money. I just think that wardrobe is not enough for me, I need a room to manage them (like boutique). I love to appreciate the clothes, bags and shoes that I've bought.

Mum always scolding me that how many body do you have? Could you wear it all in a year even if you change it daily without washing them?

I often reacting keep quiet when she said this. In fact, I really did wrong so I couldn't make against her words. =.="

By the way, I don't know how much did I spend on them (I dare not to calculate).
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Dull Life

2011-04-13T13:31:00.004+08:00

Just awake from bed. Sometimes, I find that it's rather boring to stay at home whole day without doing anything. I'm not used to live in boring life. I need meaningful and fulfilled life, like seriously. My current tasks for daily are sleeping, eating and watching drama repeatedly. Ugh! Can't bear with this life. I need to dance and do shopping badly! It's good to have party or vacation too during my semester break.

I don't think I will have energy to move on anymore. Let it be (I expect the worst consequence). I'm not terrified of the result anymore. Planning to have vacation in order to relax my mind. =)
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Who Cares?

2011-04-12T20:45:00.007+08:00

Yeah, finally, I'm not that annoyed now but there are two left, I have to think a way to settle it. Stay at home whole day and doing nothing. Lol. I spent some times to dance freely afternoon with song. It is good to dance when I feel annoyed.

By the way, I just don't want to think or even care anymore because no one cares, why do I? Enjoying hair treatment now.
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Welcome Home!

2011-04-11T22:15:00.003+08:00

Aiks! Finally, reach home safely. Quite tired after sitting for half and six hours bus. Anyway, it's nice to be home, always!

Sometimes, I don't feel like moving at all once I feel numb. My mind is blank now, and I couldn't think and be wise. I'm just couldn't recognize which is good, which is bad, if not, true or fake. They are just to complicated for me. Stop thinking, jump into my bed now.

Bye people and night.
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Nonstop Shopping

2011-04-11T00:28:00.007+08:00

As I said, I went to Sunway Pyramid again for shopping. For today, I spent lots. And, I got myself four dresses, two tops and a bag (from cotton on, mango, and forever 21). After shopping for few hours, we went to have our brunch at 4.30pm. Lol. It seemed too late, I think. We chit chatted for an hour and after that went to have a drink with her again.

By the way, I'm going home tomorrow (but by bus alone). =.="
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And yeah, I simply love this!

Guess which two I bought? And which do you think nicer for me?

This was our brunch - porridge.

Lychee ice.

Lemon coke.

Sunway Pyramid

2011-04-10T07:59:00.005+08:00

People, I'm in KL now. Will go Sunway Pyramid again later. I couldn't sleep well yesterday, maybe too cold for me. I woke up at 4.55am and couldn't fall asleep anymore. Went to Sunway Pyramid with An Joy after I reached here. I bought two mango spaghetti. I'm going to buy a bag (I spotted yesterday), two dresses (spotted too) and another top. It was just because I didn't bring enough money yesterday. I never meant to shop at first. But in the end, buying too. Lol. We had a drink at a cafe in Sunway Pyramid after that (forgot what name it was).

Watched "婚前试爱" just now, overall, it's nice I think. I reckon I will be going back to Kemaman the day after tomorrow (maybe).

Off to pps again, bye people.
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I love this!

Which one better? Blue, red or green?

Shopping Again

2011-04-08T21:38:00.003+08:00

Well, just had my dinner and about to blog now. I went to Kuantan just now and I got myself some clothes - two tees, one trousers, a black formal top and a black high-waist skirt (still not contented). Forgot to buy earrings. Aiks. Well, I reached home around 7.30pm and then I quickly took a cold shower.
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Picture taken before bathing. My outfit for today.

Which one better? And guess which I bought in the end? =D

Tired look. =S

Good Morning

2011-04-08T12:55:00.004+08:00

Morning people, I just awake from bed and about to take shower. So, tie my hair into random bun. Lol. I'm still considering whether going KL later with gor gor. Should I or shouldn't I?

I had nightmares last night. It isn't good one, and extremely bad. Luckily, it's just a dream. We are planning to go to Pulau Redang this coming May. And hopefully, it comes true. Yeah!

By the way, the air is so fresh here! Take a breath deeply. Wow!
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Wardrobe

2011-04-07T23:22:00.003+08:00

I'm home again, this time I back for holidays for a month. See, there are so many clothes until I can open a boutique (still have KL's wardrobe). Lol. Anyway, I can't bear anymore, I think I will back to KL again for cleaning up my wardrobe since just now I have no time to clean it up. By the way, I will do some shopping when I back to KL this time. I spent time to keep my room just now, and I threw some useless accessories (there are still lots). Lol.

I have lots of clothes, bags, shoes and so on, but I wonder why I still want to buy. I do feel like they are not enough for me (sot jor). I just love buying.

Bye people, off to drama. Night too.
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Exam End

2011-04-07T15:49:00.005+08:00

Yes! Exam end finally! Meaning I can rest in the end. However, I don't feel like really happy or relax, maybe my exam mood had been off since yesterday after doing a crazy shopping (indeed, I wish to buy more). Well, will go home with daddy later, he will come and fetch me.

I really wish to do more shopping and I wish to stay here for few days but I don't want to take bus, that's why I have to leave today. I have no choice. =.="

I feel sleepy and tired now. Tool, it's so freaking hot these few days, why huh? My skin always burning when I'm outside. The sun is so strong! Ughh!

Gotta off, bye people. I want to shopping!
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I Love Shopping

2011-04-06T18:36:00.009+08:00

Yea, finally, I went to do shopping just now with Siew Ting and Xiao Jia. I bought 5 tops (seem like don't have clothes like that). Lol. Anyway, I enjoyed the processing of selecting, trying and buying. It's just too great!

I've addicted to shopping long time ago (I think most of the girls also have this "good" habit). They love to do crazy shopping whenever they're upset, especially. Yea, I meant it because I'm one of them. Lol.
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We had lunch at Ichiban. This was mine and Xiao Jia one. We shared.

Three of us. Sharlyn back to hometown directly after exam. =(

Me in the fitting room, yea, and snapped (this was what I always do, you should know).
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Felt a bit sleepy because I woke up too early today.

Let's call it a day! I really had fun when doing shopping, no more vexations and I really have to emphasize that...

I LOVE SHOPPING SO MUCH!

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Sleepy

2011-04-05T21:31:00.003+08:00

Err...

I don't even feel like studying for a second today, I'm just too tired. Maybe because of the nightmares? Lol. Guess what, I dream of Tsunami in my hometown - Kemaman when I was in Wei Xiong's car. He was fetching me home and then Tsunami come! Lol. I was totally arouse from the bad dream.

No longer later, I carried on to sleep, another nightmares again. It's so tiring to dream, especially action dreams. Lol. Will have exam tomorrow, I didn't read at all today (guilty). But what to do, my mind just stuck whenever I face the notes.

It's time to have my supper - burger and apple+grape juice. Lol. I guess I would read some before sleeping. I just feel like sleeping all the time.

Oh yea, bought a new bag yesterday. By the way, he is too "sam pa". =.="
Bye people, night too.
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Before Exam

2011-04-04T11:53:00.005+08:00

Pictures taken after drying my hair.

I guess I've get ready to sit for exam - Social psychology. I've memorized and understood those notes given. Hopefully, I will do well later (all the best!). Will have lunch together with Siew Ting later before going to college. Well, two days to go after today.

Off to lunch, bye people. Good luck to myself and my friends who will sit for exam later. By the way, I received your wish, same to you, good luck in your exam!
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Wish Me Luck

2011-04-03T19:48:00.004+08:00

I reached safely.

Well, I wonder why this time I feel even more stressful whenever the date come closer. Argh. I never been this before. Seriously, I do prepared enough this time, but why I feel even more nervous? I remember last time I was in a pretty relaxing mood.

Anyway, I will try to control my nervous, it shouldn't happens because it might cause my mind blank when the exam is carried out. Alright, no longer staying here, gotta face my notes again.

Wish me luck!
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I ♥ Natures

2011-04-03T00:01:00.018+08:00

Do you love beach? Yes, I do!
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Went to Awana with them after yc-ing at kemaman station. We never planned to be there actually, it was all sudden decision. Yea, we had fun over there. Enjoyed the atmosphere, the winds, the sounds of waves as well at there. It was a sunny day by the way.

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How we hoped Pei Li and Shell were here too. =(

Walked near the sea.

Yea, pictures sections! Haha!

Wow! That's really enjoying! Love it!

There are still lots of photos in my facebook account. Feel free to view it. Monday - 4th April 2011 gonna be my first day of exam. Ishh. Feel so reluctant to sit for exam. I wish stay at home more. =(

Well, it's time to sleep anyway, good night people. Sweet dream (get away from me nightmares!)

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Friday

2011-04-02T23:36:00.007+08:00

This was Friday!

I went to visit my grandpa and grandma for Qing Ming festival yesterday. Well, after that I went to Kuantan with mummy and sima. We had lunch together before having own activities.

After that, I asked mummy to leave me at Megamall. It's okay for me to shop alone. I was quite enjoy with the situation whenever shop alone. Haha. Well, I bought lots this time - two jean shorts, one cotton short, one tee and another top.

Guess what, I got RM50 accidentally at the floor of Ec mall. Haha. Once in my lifetime, I never meet this type of lucky event before, never okay. Then, I quickly spent it on clothes because I would even felt more guilty to hold the money. It was better to spend it.

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Yea, and I bought this with only RM29, because it's from Mango outlet. Haha. Anyway, it's worth for me.

It Isn't Easy

2011-03-29T23:10:00.005+08:00

It isn't easy

to apologize
to begin over
to take advice
to be unselfish
to admit error
to face a sneer
to keep trying
to be considerate
to avoid mistakes
to endure success
to profit by mistakes
to forgive and forget
to think and then act
to keep out of a rut
to make best the best of little
to tolerate
to shoulder a deserved blame
to control bad temper

It's also not easy to understand someone. Some even takes time (more than years) to understand someone they wish to understand but they may ended up misunderstand everything and destroy it.

I do strongly believe it isn't easy to understand someone when you only use your eyes and ears, unless you use your heart to see and listen, I guess everything would be very different.
♥

Leng, cheer too! Good luck. Love ya. =)

Love

2011-03-29T17:46:00.013+08:00

LOVE

Before the topic, I may tell that I nearly lose myself, direction I mean.

Well...

Male will never knows what female thinking. In different ways to say, female will never knows exactly what male really think of. That's why we need communication.

People who break up normally due to conflicts of both different personalities (often cases I heard). But for me, I would like to break when if the guy do not understand me well even if I've made lots of chance for him to realize it. This is because of I simply can't bear with a guy who doesn't know me well (this is always the main causes for me).

Well, I know that there can be always many factors to cause breaking up in an intimate relationship. It isn't only they guy doesn't understand you well. It can be some ridiculous factors too. Who knows? People who in the situation are always blind, that's why we need to clear our mind by talking to inner emotions at times instead of listening too much of advises. This may lead you to confusion indeed.

I guess I have to really clear out my mind from now on. I seriously lose myself. I just can't be like this, it isn't me, so not!

Alright, back to the topic.

Love isn't logic. Yea, I never deny this. But we can be rational before harm is done to someone. People often saying that there's no right or wrong in love. What do you think about it? For me, it doesn't really accurate. Okay, let's say when you are rational now, you may think there's always right or wrong in love. In other words, you may confused between right or wrong when you're facing some intimate conflicts, or even, you might think that actually there's no right or wrong (because you don't want to know, you're just too confused about it).

And, do you believe in "true love"? I don't know whether I believe in it or not, and I never really think of this clearly. Meaning, I never find out my answer for this because it is not really important for me. Some may think that they have to seek for their "true love" so that their life can be only fulfilled meaningfully. Or maybe, some may think that life is not only intimate love, the most important for them is to enjoy every process of love or being loved. It's all depending on how you think of it.

However, I do believe my instincts. I believe that a strong feeling towards a person is about a non describable emotions. For example, I don't know why I do this to him/her, I don't this, I don't know and I just simply accidentally do it due to my current perceptions. Do this ever happens to you? Think about it.

Well, believe in your instincts or hunch doesn't mean to be suspicious. You have to make clear of it. Make sure your mind is clear when you're about to believe you instinct. Most of the suspicious thinking is always inaccurate (I bet) because you're in confusing minds, of course, everything will not goes well as you wish. When you think it's bad, yes it could get bad in the end because of you doubts. People, I admit that I ain't the perfect one, neither you. Thus, tolerate as much as you can as long as you think that is worth for you.

And, I actually spent some times to talk to inner heart, and I found values above. All I'm trying to say is I've cleared my mind.

Think about your love, people. Good luck.

♥

Yunyee Tan

Before Taking Shower

2011-03-28T22:55:00.007+08:00

I had nasi lemak just now as my supper and some kelopok. Wow! I was pretty satisfied but not really full. Well, watching another movie now. I would probably sleep after the movie. I'm just a bit tired today even if I have slept lots this morning and afternoon. Maybe over sleep causes me feel even more fatigued. Yes, it isn't good to sleep too much actually.

Yes! By the way, I gain weight, wohoo!
♥

Pictures taken before taking shower. Yes, I was ready to bath.

Growing

2011-03-28T19:50:00.004+08:00

Wow! I'm so full of two big plates of rice too, two huge bowl of home-made soup. It's just too great to have my meals at home with family. As previous time, three generation dined together with some conversations. That's so nice, don't you think so?

Well, I watched some movies today. Pretty satisfied with the contents. I'm searching for another movie for later when if I got bored of memorizing. Frankly, I really don't like to memorize, prefer understanding instead of memorizing. It's just too annoying to memorize so much of annoying notes. They would probably drive me mad soon, yea, very soon.

Lesson today...

Sometimes, I think that I should not hold too tight, else, I will lose even more. Just let it be spontaneous, perhaps it would be much better. In other words, the tightly you hold, the more you may lose (seriously).

People always used to (commonly) say that cherish everything you have before it's too late. Yes, no doubt, I do agree to this but, I think that we should cherish yet enjoying the process of cherishing so that we can only know what we are really treasuring. And people always regret when it's already too late, they only learn to start cherishing when they lose something or someone. Yea, that's one of the process of growing in life.

We will not grow as if we escape from falling. We are all growing no matter a child, adult, or even old person, aren't we?

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Bored

2011-03-28T15:02:00.004+08:00

When I got bored with the notes, and this will always happen. I feel a bit sleepy and drowsy, for sure, I'm not in mood to study any now. I just feel like watching movie instead of memorizing the notes given. I do feel like I'm a pig at times (because I sleep after eating and eat again after waking up from bed).

I'm thinking of the opinions which were given by them yesterday. Yea, they're right at times, maybe just I used to pretend to be nothing because I'm afraid to be hurt again. Am I?

When I'm shouldering a huge responsibility, I won't be real happy at all. And the roads may always seem hard to go on, if not, move on. Yes, I just couldn't deny that is so true.
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OMG

2011-03-28T13:40:00.006+08:00

Oh no, I just can't help to eat, I transform into a huge monster again.

Guess what, I ate two plate of rice and soup as dinner. Later, KFC, mihun tom yam, grilled chicken as well as blueberry ice blended as my supper. I just couldn't control myself from eating. And obviously, my apparent looks fatter than before (when I was very very thin).

Well, anyway, I'm so glad that I gain weight but then, as for my financial problem, I'm officially bankrupt. Aikss. Stick with my notes lately as my exam is around the corner.

Oh yea, it's raining now. I just love raining when I'm home. It's so great for me. What I gonna to eat later? Nasi minyak or nasi lemak as supper? Lol.

Bye people and here I come, my annoying notes (have to kill you all).
♥

The Air Is Fresh

2011-03-25T14:02:00.005+08:00

People, I'm home now. Probably, I will stay here for a week. I'm going to sit for exam. Love the atmosphere here, especially my lovely home. Love to stick with family, especially mummy. Hehe!

The spicy (x3) mihun tomyam make me sore throat this morning. Anyway, never regret of eating it because it's just too nice for me.

Well, gotta go, off to drama and notes now. Bye people. Wish me have a nice week at home. By the way, the air is so fresh here.
♥

Kemaman's Foods

2011-03-24T23:59:00.006+08:00

Kmn's foods, I'm loving it badly especially mihun tom yam (spicy x3).
♥

Went to 3K yesterday after taking a warm shower. Reached home around 8.30pm and hang out with them around 9.30pm. It had been a long time I didn't eat such nice and great mihun tom yam (extreme spicy). Too, didn't self-snap with her in ages. I was so damn full yesterday.

I ordered a bowl of mihun tom yam (add on spicy and mihun), grilled chicken chop and passion fruit ice blended. Felt so good to have mihun tom yam when it was raining heavily.
♥

I was busy eating like fox, seriously.

This was so funny yet cute. Lol.

Solo one. After fulfilling my greedy stomach. I started to feel sleepy.

Painful

2011-03-23T21:15:00.004+08:00

Lol. I wonder why I feel exhausted recently. Feel like sleeping all the time, especially after eating. Sounds like pig right? Perhaps I'm. And yeah, I will be going home tomorrow again. I used to back hometown nowadays, maybe having a serious homesick. Who knows? Lol.

They said I look mature in wearing real spec. Yes, I think so. But I have no choice, since I face my laptop for all day, and it makes my eyes so tired. Meaning I have to wear spec when I'm facing screen or notes.

Guess what, I leave on RM2.00 in my purse. I don't know how am I going to survive for tomorrow. I bang the "door window" just now, how stupid I am. It's so painful, gosh! This is the first time and I sweat it's also the last time, no more happening to me. Ishh!
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Real Spec

2011-03-22T21:16:00.005+08:00

How was the look in real spec (dark navy)?

It cost me RM179 with 400UV protection. I was wearing gor's huge tee. Yea, I mean it was really big for me. Haha! Well, I stole his tee without asking his permission and he knew it. However, he didn't scold or blame me in any ways. It's so comfortable for me to wear for sleeping.

Yien, I guess we will look more similar if I'm wearing this spec. I just can't wait to webcam with you. Online faster. =)

I just recall that he looks good in wearing spec too. Who is that "he" I meant? Lol.

Bye, off to notes. Gosh!
♥

Wishes

2011-03-21T19:13:00.005+08:00

I love the heels so much! Oh no, how much I wish to get it, but too bad, there's no more my size. Do you think they are match? Lol. Oh yea, I gain weight - 2kg. Yeah (so happy)!

I'm just too tired today, feel like sleeping all the time, I guess I have to sleep now, good night people.
♥

I haven't Decide

2011-03-19T22:31:00.011+08:00

I haven't make any decisions (I want to cry jor).

Oh no, allow me to die? I really don't know which to choose. I prefer upper one, both. Either peach or silver.

Well, I received lots of comments about these dress. Some said peach, some said silver, some said red, or even black. Oh no! They seriously drive me mad. I'm getting mental disorder soon. There are lots of different votes, which should I choose? And which is my beloved one (inner thinking)? Or should I buy both? Argh, I really don't know how to decide. Need help!

Since I'm stressful because of the dresses, then I try to self-snap. It doesn't work for me feeling better at all.
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Hometown

2011-03-17T17:47:00.003+08:00

Yeah! I'm happy because I will be home soon. Picture above taken before going hometown. Haha! Well, I'm feeling a bit unwell now actually. Maybe I was walking under the rain just now.

Well, gotta go. Bye people. Praying that I will be home safely.
♥

Healthy One

2011-03-16T22:10:00.005+08:00

Crunchy! Crunchy! I'm loving it!
♥

Slept directly after going to KFC with friends (see, I'm like pig).

Went to Jusco with gor gor just now. And of course, I won't miss the chance of filling up my stock at home (I need not to pay for one sen too). That's great! I had sushi and crunchy with full cream milk as my dinner just now. To be frank, I didn't drink milk before except chocolate milk. And I wonder why I started to drink it few months ago.

Yes, no more unwholesome foods today - burger or nasi lemak. I will have some healthy one as my supper - crunchy, full cream milk, orange juice or yogurt! Yeah!

I seriously demand the book! So miss it!
♥

I'm A Truly Pig

2011-03-16T19:46:00.004+08:00

Went to KFC for brunch after class. I have to tell that I'm still tired after sleeping for more than 12 hours (I wonder why). And yes, I think I could find the answer - dream too much (nightmares). I was fighting in the dream when I saw two different monsters (I didn't watch any cartoon or animation). By the way, I was facing death in the dream, and that time I was totally aroused from that nightmare. Later, I carried on to sleep again until 11.00pm. Lol. Maybe having to much exercise in the dream and it causes me couldn't sleep well. All those were big actions one, seriously!

I'm having a bad "sick" recently - pig sick. Lol. How to say. Okay, I feel freaking sleepy after fulfilling my starving stomach. Hey, it's just like pig (吃饱就睡,睡饱就吃). Oh no. But however, it helps to gain weight. So it's okay for me to do so, perhaps. It makes me feel lazy too, how? So confusing right? I wish to gain weight but I don't want to be lazy!

I'm a truly pig, yes!
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Greedy

2011-03-15T21:51:00.005+08:00

People are so greedy, that's so true.

Yes, people will not satisfied with what they own now. They would wish to get more than that even if they got what they desire to get. There will like a never end. In other words, the more the get, the more and more the wish to get.

It's like a life cycle. Let's see.

You desire, and you get. Later, you desire again and you get. Yea, it shown people want to improve themselves by possessing something which could empower them to look powerful. I used to talk about life recently (I don't know why). Too many of thoughts to share maybe. Lol.

Well, had porridge as dinner just now. Wow, so full now. Anyway, I still take away burger as my supper later. Hehe. =)

Off to drama. Bye people.
♥

Brand-new Day!

2011-03-14T22:39:00.007+08:00

I have actually lots of random pictures to upload to facebook but the line is just too slow and I couldn't make it.

Got myself this today with a very reasonable price! Nice?

Will have nasi lemak later as my supper before jumping into my dream. Lol. Yea, I didn't watch for one episode today, maybe because I'm tired. Gonna to sleep later, very soon. Went to Papa John to have lunch with them. It wasn't as nice as I expected. Well, I would probably not go for there again.

After class, we went to snow again for eating ice. Yeah! It was a hot day today and nice to have it. Well, I have got to go. Bye people, night as well.

Tomorrow gonna be a brand-new day!
♥

Picture taken yesterday which I couldn't upload to facebook.

That's Life!

2011-03-14T20:26:00.006+08:00

I just can't get my eyes off!

Well, I found an interesting and absolutely awesome book! I wished to get it instantly but then I had no money. I will get it as soon as possible anyway. I walked alone along the street just now. And, I thought a lots which concern life.

"Yea, exactly, that's life!", this is what people often say. Everyone would have their own opinion on life, it can be great, meaningful, wonderful or even meaningless (that's why some may feel to commit suicide). I wouldn't mind to repeat again, that is what I want to say, "that's life!".

No doubt, we couldn't predict the future but we can actually set goals for future. We would not know whether we would success later but at least we try, aren't we? Yes, what would you react if you fail? It means you're a failure forever? It doesn't mean so right? Think about it.

We all have own talents. But, it isn't enough to have only talent, we must have to sharpen it. You play at level at which you practice.

To look over yourself,
to accept yourself,
to be yourself,
and never give up yourself easily.

Man is imperfect, we will never ever be perfect for once. If we do, there would be no need for love in this world, isn't it?

Till now, do you discover your talent? It may be and may not be. As long as you find it, please make the best of it, because it might be a weapon for you to fight for further life. Yeah! Fight for yourself, life too!

We are born to make life meaningful til the max!
♥

Yunyee Tan

Line's Suck

2011-03-13T22:17:00.003+08:00

Watching drama all the day even if I put the notes in front of me, I didn't read it though. Oh no, I'm going to have trial test tomorrow. How am I going to die? Lol. Well, will read it after this post (serious one). Just had burger and full cream milk as my supper (I said that I must want to gain weight!).

By the way, facebook line access is freaking slow. Oh gosh, I just couldn't bear with it because I have pictures to upload. Ishh! It definitely spoil my mood. Hmph!

Well, no longer staying here. Have to read through the notes now. Bye people. Good night too.
♥

Sex And The City

2011-03-12T23:53:00.006+08:00

I just watched "欲望都市" which is sex and the city part one. Wow! It's nice and great! I learned lots from there. I've started writing diary. I want to mark down my feelings every single days. There are lots of things come into my minds so sudden, I just couldn't accept and digest it all so quickly.

Should I make decision based on feelings? Or thinking? Don't you think sometimes it might be more accurate if you make decision based on feelings? At least you make a choice of what you really want and leave no regrets.

I don't know, I've been thinking for whole day, I'm just too confused and couldn't make a wise decision. Sometimes, I thought I would extreme pain, but in fact, I feel nothing. Perhaps I get numb of it already.

Is it easy to forgive a person that ever hurts you? And would you? People often saying that it's good for you to forgive a person because the feeling of hating isn't good, and it might hurt you at any times but you will never realize it easily.

I'm all alone at home now. Yea, from day to night. Hey, it's really boring okay! Oh no, I can't believe that I can stay at home steadily from day to night, it's so not me.

And here, all I'm trying to say is I don't want be to be cheated. So don't try me. I don't think I can repeatedly bear with it anymore. I have my limit too!

By the way, ice-cream + full cream milk = supper (I'm not full anyway, I need burger).
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Where Is My Confidence?

2011-03-12T18:00:00.007+08:00

I'm thinking to quit, should I (I really don't know)? I hate this kind of feeling which is - doubting someone. I hate myself for not believing someone I trust ever anymore. I just simply don't like to be suspicious.

It's so hard for me to go through and step forward anymore now. I just wish to stay and maintain what I've now. It's okay for me to be alone now. I need to talk to my inner heart, and discover what I really need. I don't want to force myself for doing something that I dislike. I could bear in anything but except hiding my real feeling and pretending that I'm always alright (I'm not okay!).

Yes, I have totally no confidence at all now. I'm fear in maintaining it. I'm afraid the more hard I try, the more hurts i gain after all (I don't want).

Stop pretending that you're alright at all. In fact, you're not! I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so tired.

I will think seriously this time.
♥

Grow

2011-03-12T15:26:00.007+08:00

As I went through so many hardships recently, I found that I've been growing up especially mentally (of course not my height and weight). I didn't simply spend money on buying unnecessary things when I was unhappy or upset. I mostly spent time at home and watched drama or movie while doing my revision.

But anyway, sometimes, I wonder why my pocket money gone so quickly since I didn't spend much money on clothes. Went out just now for my lunch. I bought a box of ice-cream and green grapes (I just want to gain weight). I walked along the street alone, and I realized I have been losing myself for months and I never discover that. Yea, I found I seriously need freedom like previous me, I didn't like to be restrained by anyone or anythings. I just simply want to be myself, a true self. I've thinking more mature and dared not to step forward without thinking twice. I've been suspicious if compare to previous me (I just don't like that way because it's so not me).

Sometimes, I wish not to grow up, and to be little again because I need not to be so considerate. I'm just too mind of others opinion, and it makes me lost myself. I shouldn't be influenced by anyone, else, I will not find myself.

It's not necessary to be perfect as long as you be yourself (try your best). I ain't a perfect person, neither you but we are all born to be unique, no one could be really similar like you even if twins, isn't it? Yea, perhaps they have 99% same looks/appearance but it doesn't they do have the exactly same personalities or characters which mean we do have our own talent and potential which we never discover it. Thus, believe yourself because you're always special.

People would change their thinking and behave in another ways which are out of expectations when they undergo some miserable experiences. They might losing direction or even themselves when they do not think in positive ways. Mostly, they could behave in certain bad ways. This is because thoughts and mind would affect the way you behave and you may not realize it at times.

You may not gain what you want to get at times when you've been paying for so much. Yea, that's life, it's so unfair at times. But for sure, you will not get what you want to gain when you even do not pay at all. In other words, you pay, it doesn't mean you will get any returns; but when you didn't you must not get any.

I wonder why I have so much thoughts to share now. But they are all learned from my own experiences and mistakes that I had made before. These are reminders for me for not to make the same mistakes again (even if I know I often will).

No matter what, we ought to take responsibility of what we've chosen. And leave no regrets on that. Just believe what you've chosen is always right and don't care of others. People will not believe you if you never believe yourself too because you cant persuade other to have faith in you when you have never trust in yourself. How should they have confidences to rely on you - if you don't?

I guess I should be objective and re-figure my demands. There's always a problem which I couldn't describe it by using words. It's all about my perceptions. I don't feel secure somehow.

By the way, it's raining out there. I miss home suddenly.
♥

With @ Without

2011-03-11T22:00:00.003+08:00

With and without spec.

Lol. I'm living in healthy lifestyle currently. I mean only today. And I wish it can be maintained until I gain weight and look fatter. Haha! I had healthy bread as my breakfast, Rasa Mas chicken rice as my lunch. Too, rice with some vegetables as my dinner. After that, I bought bananas and burger as my supper later. I attempted to buy a box of ice-cream at first but then it was raining and I didn't bring umbrella. Thus, I just quit to buy it. Maybe will buy it tomorrow. =)

Yeah, will have burger and milk later as my supper after this drama. Gotta go, off to drama. Bye people. Oh no, I have to start study already before it's too late. =(

By the way, I got fever yesterday. And luckily, recovered this afternoon. =)

♥

Watch

2011-03-09T21:49:00.004+08:00

I got this free last month with voucher. It was the nicest among others. I just simply grab it since I didn't know what to buy over there.

Well, I'm actually facing the notes now while writing blog, watching drama too. Oh no, I just can't concentrate at all. I don't even feel like studying. How? Lol. Yea, I'm going to buy another things tomorrow. Haha!

Argh! I have to control myself from simply buying things. Save money! By the way, I'm addicted to watch lately. =.="
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Dinner

2011-03-09T20:30:00.003+08:00

These were what I had as my dinner. Italian sauce spaghetti and blueberry red tea. The spaghetti wasn't as nice as I expect, but the blueberry was great! I love it.

Well, I lose my weight gradually. Oh no! I should retrieve it before it's too late. I don't want to look skinny anyway. Argh! Soon, I will have my exam, after 3 weeks I guess. Wow! The time is so pack, I'm afraid I couldn't finish all the chapters. How?

I didn't do shopping as frequent as before because I have no more energy and time currently. I have to focus on my studies first. I'm planning to relax my mind next week, wonder whether it success or not. Hopefully, it will. Then it would be greater for me! Yeah!

By the way, I want to gain weight, again (jia you)!
♥

♥ 8th March 2011 ♥

2011-03-09T00:22:00.007+08:00

Well, I was happy today and was in mood to camwhore. I had my brunch with Sharlyn at McDonald after the early class. There were only two of us, we shared our inner feelings for few hours. And I realized, yea, she was my close friend in college. I mean, she could get what I was trying to express my feeling whenever I told her a story or even just a sentence sometimes. I just felt good to talk to her.
♥

I accidentally bought a watch today. It cost me RM69.00, reasonable? Maybe. Sharlyn didn't stop me from buying it too, thus I just bought it without thinking a second. And I just simply love it.

Well, with spec one.

And this was without one, but with natural smile, I think. =S

The white watch I bought. Simply love it.
♥

Today was a happy and wonderful day, I should remember it well. Oh yea, gotta sleep, good night people.
♥

I'm Fine

2011-03-07T21:39:00.006+08:00

We were really on phone that time, it wasn't an acting.

This was taken before I left my hometown - Kemaman. Lol. Frankly, I felt so unwilling to leave that day, I wished to stay at home for few more days. I felt unwilling to grow up.

Yeap, reached KL safely yesterday. I felt even more tired when I reached here, especially my pair of eyes, I always wonder why. Oh no, I just realized time pass so freaking fast, my semester gonna to end soon. I guess still a month to go, that's fast! I can't imagine that.

Yea, gonna to face my notes. Bye people. I'm safe now yet, fine. No worries.

By the way, don't feel regret of the decision which was made. Just be yourself, believe yourself, and show what you have. Stop doubting, it might cause you live in complicated life continuously.
♥

Think Of

2011-03-04T18:40:00.005+08:00

Webcam non stop recently lor. But anyway, I enjoy those moments. =)

Well, I think lots of things too. What I supposed to do, and not to. I have to make my mind clear now. Sometimes, you may control life actually if you want to. Of course, I mean behavior, thinking and minds too.

No doubt, we couldn't deny or take control of disaster, or somethings that totally out of our control. Therefore, we should take control of what are really under our control. You may think that life is happy and awesome when your thinking ways are positive. So meanwhile, you may think that life is worse or meaningless when only if your thinking is negative one. These are all under our control. Be happy or be sad, it's all up to you. No one would actually try to control, even if they want, they couldn't too. This is because we are all given chances to make different in life. You have the ability to make your life greater and more greater as you desire as long as you believe that you can! Don't you think so?

Well, off to drama. Finally, I complete my assignment. Yeah!
Bye people.

By the way, you may actually stop them from ruining your life!
♥

Good Night

2011-03-04T00:36:00.007+08:00

Went to Kuala today with both of them. Cheng said she felt like eating these. We chatted and gossiped too. Lol. It didn't mean that we were bad girls, okay? Lol.

This was my order. Mee goreng basah. Not nice lor. =(

I ordered two drinks - coconut and cendol.

So as to the night, I went to yum cha with Cheng and Chi Wei. I felt sleepy all the time lor, I just don't know why. And for sure, I back home early.

Online for awhile and watched drama before going to bed. Seriously, I have no appetite to eat lately lar. I wonder why.

Anyway, good night people. Drink "yan wo" again before going to bed. Love you, mummy.
♥

Burger

2011-03-02T22:53:00.004+08:00

Webcam with Cheng now while having my burger. So, going to blog about them now. Wow! I've been watching 3 different drama in a day. Well, I feel tired now already. It's a good things.

Gonna to sleep early later after having my "yan wo". Ahah! She told me that I'm growing mature and mature, mentally I mean. Yes, I do.

I realized I only really happy when there's no more stress with me. Good night.

♥

Yien ♥ Yee

2011-03-02T16:07:00.004+08:00

Oh yea, do we look alike?

Haha. Finally, we had a talk via msn. Miss her so much. And she said I'm getting fat now. Glad to hear this. When was the last time we webcam huh? I guess last year. Oh no, such long time ago.

Really wish she is in Kemaman now, so that, we can self-snapping and post it in facebook. Haha! Well, have to rush my assignment already. By the way, I was sick today, still feel like no appetite to eat.

Well, off to assignments now, bye people.

♥

Home

2011-03-01T23:13:00.003+08:00

I'm home! Yes! I'm home!

Yeah, I finally reached home. Well, I spent 7 hours to reach home. It was so tired to sit in the bus for 7 hours, oh no. But anyway, it's worth for me. At least I'm home now.

I was welcomed with warm love and treated like princess. Don't why, just feel like crying all the time because it's too touching.

Well, I feel extremely tired now. And sleepy too, I guess I would jump to bed after this. And my lovely mummy cook me some "燕窝" as a sign of welcoming her daughter home. I love you, mummy, gor gor and also daddy. Of course, little brother too. =)

Feel definitely warm at home, and going to sleep now, I guess I don't need any sleeping pill this time, I could also fall asleep.
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Love You All

2011-02-28T22:15:00.006+08:00

Okay, let's start with...

My moody mode suddenly on again just now, and for sure, I cried. I really didn't know what to do, and I seriously miss my family, especially mummy. However, I dared not to call her. Well, I ended up calling my gor. Once he picked up the phone, I just couldn't stop myself crying. This was the first time I called my family members and tell them I was unhappy. He asked me the reasons (well, I was still crying), I didn't mean to tell at first, but then he kept asking, I told him finally.

He told me lots of moral values or life values after he knew it. Yes, things that he told me, I already knew it long time ago, just I never change it because I can't let go. This was a way I try to conceal myself that I was cured. I often pretending I was happy and nothing at all, it was just too tiring for me now. I shouldn't make my life like this way. It was just so unlike me anymore.

Yea, and know I realized family could be always the most powerful one whenever you are sad. I strongly felt that I was loved by all of them. They would worry me whenever I was sad. As I was still a good girl, I should stay strong this time, and never let them worry about me again. I knew mum was worrying me now. Sorry, mummy. I didn't mean to make you worry on me.

My gor worried me and kept asking me to buy foods and eat since he knew I didn't eat for whole day except a bread which I had it at afternoon. And he also worried about me that I may feel bored at home, he asked me to buy some CD to watch, and he will pay it for me later. He told me if I didn't have enough money, I could let him know and he will bank in to me now. Frankly, I really wish to go home instantly. I miss them so much.

And then mummy called me, she didn't know I was crying at first. But once I heard her voice, I couldn't stop myself from crying again. She wondered and worried of course, I knew it from her voice. She asked me the reasons, and I didn't tell her, I asked her to ask my gor. When she really knew that I couldn't tell her, she just asked gor afterward.

Okay, I'm so glad now that I can go home tomorrow. Yes, by bus alone. It's okay for me now as I really wish to be home with them now. I don't want to stay here alone.

I love my family, thank you so much for loving me this daughter and sister. Family always the supportive one, friends too.

And I realized the more pessimistic you are, the more easily you get sick because you're the one who deem yourself as weaker. When you're really sad and down, the only can help you is yourself, family and friends is just your supporter, they can't really heal you.
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Serious Insomnia

2011-02-28T17:45:00.005+08:00

Went to dine with Zhung Kiang them yesterday. I was fully full, pretty contented with it. Felt sleepy directly after having some much foods. Well, I couldn't sleep well yesterday. And I sms-ed Keh Sheng. He called me back in the end.

I just slept for only half and hour for yesterday, still, not that tight. I finally felt asleep at 4.10am, but who knows, I was awake at 5.25am and I couldn't fall asleep again. Gosh! It made me so tiring and out of ideas!

Went out early in the morning - 6.50am and met up Siew Ting and Xiao Jia to have breakfast. I didn't take my breakfast and lunch somehow. I just ate a bread before attend the second class which was 12.30pm. I don't feel like eating.

I was so tired because of lacking of sleep. What to do with it? I gonna to mad it already! I have a more serious insomnia lately, again. Ishh! I cried for nearly two hours in a lecture class - from 8.00am til 10.00am. I'm really tired now, especially my eyes and brain. I wish to fall asleep directly once I lay on the bed, but I just can't. Oh no!

And then, I called Chee Yong, he asked me to buy some sleeping pills. And yea, I never try before, I guess I really need it now since I didn't sleep well or maybe I should say I didn't sleep for two days. Somemore, I cried nonstop these few days. Then, I went to Pharmacy just now, but it's close. Argh! What to do? I guess I have to suffer for tonight again. Annoying!

I reckon I would take another medicine to make me fall asleep later. I'm really tired now but I can't sleep. It's just too annoying. I don't want to suffer from insomnia lar. And lack of sleep cause me no appetite to eat even if just a bread. =X

Hate it! Help me!

Boring

2011-02-27T18:59:00.005+08:00

Tried to wake up early this morning, but failed. And ended up waking up at noon - 12.00pm sharp. Well, quickly did my assignments and do some revision after taking cold shower. Since I was lazy to go out then I requested gor gor to da bao somethings for me as brunch.

Seriously, it's too boring to stay at home whole day. But I have no idea as I have to complete my works first before enjoying the dinner later. Planned to go out today actually, maybe postpone it to next week or next two weeks. Sorry ya.

Wish to go home with gor just now. Bear with it, let's wait until next week. Ishh! Will have test tomorrow. Seem like I have lots of things haven't accomplished. God!

Rock with the dinner later. Bye people.
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Webcam

2011-02-26T23:07:00.005+08:00

I asked her to take because I was lazy. Lol. We chatted from last night already. It has been a long time we didn't chat via webcam.

Called mummy just now and asked what she's doing. Yea, she was watching drama. I felt like crying once I listened to her voice. At first, I wished to call my gor gor and then asked him to come here. I wish to talk to gor, hug him and cry out loud! Ishh! But I dared not to disturb him. Don't know how to express my feeling toward him. Lol.

Well, chocolate bread and crunchy as my dinner just now. I don't feel like eating today, don't know why. Maybe I'm bit feeling not well. Will sleep early later. =)

Bye people, and good night too.
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